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[croibhristeoir]

I-if anyone has a moment, I'm having a small problem. [This was the understatement of the millennium.]

I'd like to ask how...h-how...er...forgive me, I am having some trouble articulating things today. [Diarmuid adjusted the glasses he wore, seeming hesitant to look directly at the camera at first.]

Imagine one that...has gone through life without anger or hatred. This individual had never felt spite, resentment, or even a shred of those kind of things. He did all he could to put others and their happiness before himself and his own, finding contentment and joy in doing so. But after a certain point, that person...he found someone that did something so deplorable that it left that person filled with rage and spite.

He found someone that he hated. And no matter how he tried, that person could not simply forgive what was done to earn that hatred.

I beg of you, Prospero. Someone please tell me how that person can go back to the way he was. Before he could feel anger and spite, back when he could still grant forgiveness.

[Diarmuid looked away for a moment; he was unsure, even worried.]

Fionn, Grainne-- [Gods, what would they think of him when they knew?] ...there is something I have not yet told you. Forgive me for not doing so until now.

Arturia... [Another pause. She had been there when he had died, she knew the horrible rage he had unleashed that day. Cursing her, Kayneth, Kiritsugu, even the Grail itself. Again he worried that she must secretly detest such a hateful spirit.] When you have the time...I would like to speak with you. Please.

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[athngabla]

[He raised an eyebrow at that. Never before? As unli- actually wait a minute.]

Never? ...Well, in your case, I can actually believe that.

[He was quiet for another moment.]

Well, how do you deal with any emotion that doesn't seem fit for the occasion?

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[croibhristeoir]

Until recently? Remained silent and focused on what I was meant to do.

Somehow I suspect that won't work anymore.

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[athngabla]

A different way of going about it, maybe. Instead of focusing on what you have to do, focus on something you enjoy doing. I assume most of those things don't really have anything that would remind you of the cause of all this.

Another idea would to be to focus all that anger on something. Like I said, it's an emotion, and emotions can be used to your advantage. Combat in particular. [Just don't turn into a lung-flapping abomination, bro. Trust him, shit sucks.]

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[truthsnomiracle]

...I'm sorry, but did I hear you correctly? Do you truly claim to have retained such a level of innocence for over twenty years?

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[croibhristeoir]

Twenty-five, and yes. I'd never hated anyone until the end of the Holy Grail War.

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[truthsnomiracle]

...

...I... can scarcely imagine such a thing.

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[croibhristeoir]

I'm a knight, Edgeworth. [A small, hesitant smile.] I shouldn't be bitter and angry. So I wasn't.

[genius_idiot]

You have to take the good with the bad. It sucks, but that's how it is. Nothing's gonna stay perfect forever. It's naive to even think so!

[croibhristeoir]

Nothing's ever been perfect for me, and I accept that.

But I've never been angry about it before.

[genius_idiot]

You're not gonna be able to go back to the way you were, but that doesn't mean you can't get over it.

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[truthsnomiracle]

Things are often true despite having no place in an ideal world, Diarmuid.

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[croibhristeoir]

A fair point. But I have seen anger and spite ruin even the best of people; I myself took all the care I could to be as patient and forgiving as one can manage.

[croibhristeoir]

How would I begin to do that?

action;

[chroimilis]

Then did you believe I would remain ignorant to the truth?

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[truthsnomiracle]

To manage such for so long in the face of something as terrible as combat seems as though it would call for more than mere patience.

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[croibhristeoir]

I can't say I'm certain what you mean by that. What more would it have required?

And 'terrible'? I won't deny that warfare on a large scale is no great thing, but for knights and warriors a good fight can be a source of true happiness and contentment in the fulfillment of their purpose.

[scorpiospider]

You can't. [Blunt. Flat.] Doesn't matter, though. Raaaaaaaage can make you powerful, or at least less of a victim.

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[truthsnomiracle]

A disposition scarcely capable of such emotions to begin with.

Satisfaction with one's calling is something that I can relate to, at least.

[croibhristeoir]

I'm no victim. I never have been.

[scorpiospider]

Everyone's a victim. Get used to it. Maaaaaaaybe you can kick some ass before it takes you down!

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[croibhristeoir]

I'm...very capable of it. I just never knew I was until the day I arrived here.

If nothing else, I've always been content with my choices in life. I concede the point that fighting so often is perhaps not the best by modern standards, but I and those around me were happy to do so.

[croibhristeoir]

[Deadpan.]

I'm not a victim, and very capable of protecting myself.

[scorpiospider]

Yeah, yeah. Keep telling yourself that, okay?

[croibhristeoir]

You severely underestimate me, Vriska.

[scorpiospider]

Nope. Just realistic. Only troll I can think of that isn't a victim is Her Imperious Condescension Herself and that's because she's hiveshit insane. And the Empress, tyrian blooded, and did I mention hiveshit insane?