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ITP: Hero Question

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[For some reason today, Shirou felt like pouring what's left of his broken existence into someone else besides Issei and Saber.

In layman's term, Shirou's feeling talky talky today about his idiocy (Rushing into a Shadow battle to save someone.]

...

What is a hero to you all?

[Still, asking a deep question like this is not Shirou at all.]

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Whether in service to their lord, their country, or something else, a hero is one who sacrifices all that they have to ensure the safety and happiness of others.

But it is not as simple as it sounds. Whether human or demigod, people are not selfless by nature. Becoming one who puts others before themselves without question is a path that will lead to pain no matter how successful they are. No matter how many lives one improves, there will always be failures, loss, and even betrayal.

In my own personal experience, it is an existence that is simultaneously worthwhile and yet full of suffering.

Edited 2011-09-16 23:57 (UTC)

Did you ever regret taking that path, even if it was momentary?

...yes. But only once.

Upon my death in the Holy Grail War, I cursed and hated a world I'd once hoped to protect. Instead of dignity I faced death with bitter rage and wished from the bottom of my heart that I not be alone in my suffering.

[Hang on.

Cursed?]

...what do you mean by that?

[y e p]

Exactly as it sounds. I met a miserable, agonizing, and dishonorable end thanks to Saber's Master as well as my own.

[What

did

he

just

say.]

...What.

How many times must I repeat myself? I've gotten tired of this persistent desire to speak so much, I don't need redundancy on top of that.

But he coul-

He's a he-

[Yeah this is the sound of his brain.

Breaking.]

He's your father, is he not? I only learned his name recently.

I had assumed you would know--from Saber if not from Kiritsugu himself.

...Saber only told me one part of the story.

[...the part where Kiritsugu betrayed her.]

...I see. And by your surprise, I take it that part was not what he did to my Master or the role I assume he played in my death.

...not really.

[They were kinda in a panic to try to find out things about golden dick back then.]

Then you know basically nothing of the fourth war?

Pretty much, yeah.

...Nothing about the kind of man Kiritsugu Emiya is?

[Bitter? Despite his best efforts, you're damn right.]

...only of his ideals and his last betrayal.

[...he couldn't be that bad back then.

Could he.]

I see. Perhaps it's better you didn't know, then.

[Hey, this place wants honesty? It's getting honesty.]

N-no.

I have to know.

What kind of person he was back then.

Where shall I begin? How he destroyed the foundation of the Fuyuki Hyatt Hotel? How he damaged my former Master's body beyond even the faintest hope of repair?

Or shall I speak of how the last thing I saw was my master and Kiritsugu Emiya, having apparently just negotiated my forced suicide?

[The quiet ones were always the ones that could show the most anger. Lancer was still calm, though in his voice was a clear undercurrent of the same rage and bitterness that had cursed all within his sight.]

Tell me, Shirou Emiya, what kind of person you believed him to be.

...

[There's a clatter as Lancer will suddenly see the phone dropping from Shirou's hand, judging from the change in point of view.

He could also see Shirou's face, which has surprise as well as denial written all over it.]

[Oh, dammit. He'd gone too far, hadn't he? Lancer needed to figure out how to handle the obvious anger he still felt.]

...I apologize. I shouldn't have spoken carelessly.

That's a lie.

[hang on Shirou's world is being a bit broken right now.]

...N-no, its alright.

[He wasn't really shocked that Shirou didn't believe him. Honestly, Lancer didn't care one way or the other. He had asked and received an honest although irritated reply.]

You look less than 'alright'.

I-I guess it was kinda shocking to hear that.

[Who wouldn't be shocked at that revelation...]

Logical enough, I suppose.

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