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[phone; morning; locked to Sola-Ui on Saber's phone]

Saber? [He wasn't worried, strictly speaking. Of course Saber could take care of herself, occasional mishap aside. But it was strange that she hadn't returned last night. And the fact that he hadn't heard from her...he almost might have called that 'suspicious'.]

I haven't spoken to you recently, are you alright?

[Surely she was just with Shirou. Right?]

[Intuition rarely failed a knight. And Lancer's was telling him something was not right at all.]

[action; early evening]

[Lancer didn't know what to do. He didn't know anything. The former Servant in glasses sat on a park bench staring blankly at exactly nothing.]

[It was all his fault. Saber had died--by a hand not his own--and it was all his fault.]

[He didn't know what hurt more. The fact that again one of that pair had ruined everything and stolen his chance for a fight with her, or the fact that this would not have happened if he'd kept his mouth shut and just gone along with Sola's obsession. She would have been unhurt, Saber would have been alive, and Lancer...]

[Lancer would have been as miserable now as he was in Fuyuki. A small price to pay.]

[Today he likely looked nothing like the amicable, smiling and cheerful indivudual he so often was--there was a touch of ice in gold eyes, a strange sense of detachment in the way he held himself and stared at nothing. He had to stay that way. Lancer...didn't want to be angry. He didn't want to fly into the screaming anger of that vengeful spirit that had died in the Fourth War.]

[More than anything he didn't want it to keep hurting.]

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...why should she? If I had just...how is this not my fault?

Are you the one who hurt her or had any intention of doing so, or any desire to do so, or any real role in the act?

[He did almost still want to kill her, but Lancer doubted that counted here.]

I...that doesn't mean I'm not still responsible to an extent.

...Really, you people with your self-sacrificing and your self-blaming and everything. I don't understand you at all.

[After a small sigh, he rested his forehead gently against Lancer's. If he wasn't going to believed, he was going to try everything to show honesty before that.]

You're going to do what you can to make up for that, I know, but that doesn't include blaming yourself for the brunt of what happened.

Self-sacrificing is my job. It isn't such a big deal.

[Lancer was honestly a little apprehensive about how close they were, now that he'd taken a second or two to notice it.]

...Why are you so insistent on this?