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tvk2012-01-07 06:00 pm
croibhristeoir) wrote in tvk2012-01-07 06:00 pm
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⚔ 016; [video]
I-if anyone has a moment, I'm having a small problem. [This was the understatement of the millennium.]
I'd like to ask how...h-how...er...forgive me, I am having some trouble articulating things today. [Diarmuid adjusted the glasses he wore, seeming hesitant to look directly at the camera at first.]
Imagine one that...has gone through life without anger or hatred. This individual had never felt spite, resentment, or even a shred of those kind of things. He did all he could to put others and their happiness before himself and his own, finding contentment and joy in doing so. But after a certain point, that person...he found someone that did something so deplorable that it left that person filled with rage and spite.
He found someone that he hated. And no matter how he tried, that person could not simply forgive what was done to earn that hatred.
I beg of you, Prospero. Someone please tell me how that person can go back to the way he was. Before he could feel anger and spite, back when he could still grant forgiveness.
[Diarmuid looked away for a moment; he was unsure, even worried.]
Fionn, Grainne-- [Gods, what would they think of him when they knew?] ...there is something I have not yet told you. Forgive me for not doing so until now.
Arturia... [Another pause. She had been there when he had died, she knew the horrible rage he had unleashed that day. Cursing her, Kayneth, Kiritsugu, even the Grail itself. Again he worried that she must secretly detest such a hateful spirit.] When you have the time...I would like to speak with you. Please.
I'd like to ask how...h-how...er...forgive me, I am having some trouble articulating things today. [Diarmuid adjusted the glasses he wore, seeming hesitant to look directly at the camera at first.]
Imagine one that...has gone through life without anger or hatred. This individual had never felt spite, resentment, or even a shred of those kind of things. He did all he could to put others and their happiness before himself and his own, finding contentment and joy in doing so. But after a certain point, that person...he found someone that did something so deplorable that it left that person filled with rage and spite.
He found someone that he hated. And no matter how he tried, that person could not simply forgive what was done to earn that hatred.
I beg of you, Prospero. Someone please tell me how that person can go back to the way he was. Before he could feel anger and spite, back when he could still grant forgiveness.
[Diarmuid looked away for a moment; he was unsure, even worried.]
Fionn, Grainne-- [Gods, what would they think of him when they knew?] ...there is something I have not yet told you. Forgive me for not doing so until now.
Arturia... [Another pause. She had been there when he had died, she knew the horrible rage he had unleashed that day. Cursing her, Kayneth, Kiritsugu, even the Grail itself. Again he worried that she must secretly detest such a hateful spirit.] When you have the time...I would like to speak with you. Please.
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[He paused, again looking uncertain.]
...all I wanted was a second chance. To be able to bring victory to the one I had sworn loyalty. But I...I couldn't.
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[ That was that then, wasn't it? He held her responsible for taking her away from their lord and--no, she had to stop. Torn between her selfishness and her desire to be there for her husband, her fingers squeeze the bottle tightly. ]
You never fall in battle.
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[Despite what she thought, he never blamed her for what happened. He'd never really blamed anyone.]
...but my Master killed me.
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[ Blunt, but it gives him the knowledge that she knew Fionn was responsible for his death. The guilt often kept him up at night and she hardly slept for months after.. so she kept him company. It was only to be expected he would tell her. ]
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[ Diarmuid, this is the woman who bested how many people to run away with you? ]
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[Have another hug, geez.]
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Will you continue please? I'll keep from further interruptions.
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Then allow our lord to teach him the proper lesson he deserves!
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