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tvk2012-01-07 06:00 pm
croibhristeoir) wrote in tvk2012-01-07 06:00 pm
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⚔ 016; [video]
I-if anyone has a moment, I'm having a small problem. [This was the understatement of the millennium.]
I'd like to ask how...h-how...er...forgive me, I am having some trouble articulating things today. [Diarmuid adjusted the glasses he wore, seeming hesitant to look directly at the camera at first.]
Imagine one that...has gone through life without anger or hatred. This individual had never felt spite, resentment, or even a shred of those kind of things. He did all he could to put others and their happiness before himself and his own, finding contentment and joy in doing so. But after a certain point, that person...he found someone that did something so deplorable that it left that person filled with rage and spite.
He found someone that he hated. And no matter how he tried, that person could not simply forgive what was done to earn that hatred.
I beg of you, Prospero. Someone please tell me how that person can go back to the way he was. Before he could feel anger and spite, back when he could still grant forgiveness.
[Diarmuid looked away for a moment; he was unsure, even worried.]
Fionn, Grainne-- [Gods, what would they think of him when they knew?] ...there is something I have not yet told you. Forgive me for not doing so until now.
Arturia... [Another pause. She had been there when he had died, she knew the horrible rage he had unleashed that day. Cursing her, Kayneth, Kiritsugu, even the Grail itself. Again he worried that she must secretly detest such a hateful spirit.] When you have the time...I would like to speak with you. Please.
I'd like to ask how...h-how...er...forgive me, I am having some trouble articulating things today. [Diarmuid adjusted the glasses he wore, seeming hesitant to look directly at the camera at first.]
Imagine one that...has gone through life without anger or hatred. This individual had never felt spite, resentment, or even a shred of those kind of things. He did all he could to put others and their happiness before himself and his own, finding contentment and joy in doing so. But after a certain point, that person...he found someone that did something so deplorable that it left that person filled with rage and spite.
He found someone that he hated. And no matter how he tried, that person could not simply forgive what was done to earn that hatred.
I beg of you, Prospero. Someone please tell me how that person can go back to the way he was. Before he could feel anger and spite, back when he could still grant forgiveness.
[Diarmuid looked away for a moment; he was unsure, even worried.]
Fionn, Grainne-- [Gods, what would they think of him when they knew?] ...there is something I have not yet told you. Forgive me for not doing so until now.
Arturia... [Another pause. She had been there when he had died, she knew the horrible rage he had unleashed that day. Cursing her, Kayneth, Kiritsugu, even the Grail itself. Again he worried that she must secretly detest such a hateful spirit.] When you have the time...I would like to speak with you. Please.
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I wanted to kill him. I could have.
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Arturia, what's...what's wrong with me? I still hate him so much.
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[ For she's incapable of hate. While she did think that way of her previous master, it was brief and dismissed by the end of the Fifth Holy Grail War. ]
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[ What is keeping a secret from someone as dear as him? ]
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[Because daaaaamn, Prospero.]
Though I am certain he would not listen.
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.. If you dare strike an unarmed man, Diarmuid, I--!!
[ Just going to cut herself off because what is being torn between honor and friendship? ]
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He is going through what we did, except instead of rejoicing over a second chance at life.. it is one of regret and fear.
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[ It's that simple to her. ]
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[There was no accusation to his voice. All he wanted was an answer, so he could try to understand just what on earth was wrong with him.]
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[ Besides potentially work alongside his fiancee to kill Saber a billion times. ]
Say cruel words to you that you can choose to not hear? This city is small, but it is easy enough to avoid people. [ She's a master of this. ] You know his number, so why answer if he calls for you? When you see a reminder of a moment of weakness.. [ Did she just swallow hard at that? ] .. then you can choose to run away or you can choose to grow stronger from it. If you only discover hatred, then I am uncertain as to what tell you.
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[He glanced away, obviously uneasy.]
I'm sorry, Arturia.
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Diarmuid.
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[ .. oops, so used to being a king. It's easier to issue commands than to just do something of that nature. ]
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[But of course he wouldn't question it and just hug her, because what is questioning seiiiiiiba's orders.]
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