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I-if anyone has a moment, I'm having a small problem. [This was the understatement of the millennium.]

I'd like to ask how...h-how...er...forgive me, I am having some trouble articulating things today. [Diarmuid adjusted the glasses he wore, seeming hesitant to look directly at the camera at first.]

Imagine one that...has gone through life without anger or hatred. This individual had never felt spite, resentment, or even a shred of those kind of things. He did all he could to put others and their happiness before himself and his own, finding contentment and joy in doing so. But after a certain point, that person...he found someone that did something so deplorable that it left that person filled with rage and spite.

He found someone that he hated. And no matter how he tried, that person could not simply forgive what was done to earn that hatred.

I beg of you, Prospero. Someone please tell me how that person can go back to the way he was. Before he could feel anger and spite, back when he could still grant forgiveness.

[Diarmuid looked away for a moment; he was unsure, even worried.]

Fionn, Grainne-- [Gods, what would they think of him when they knew?] ...there is something I have not yet told you. Forgive me for not doing so until now.

Arturia... [Another pause. She had been there when he had died, she knew the horrible rage he had unleashed that day. Cursing her, Kayneth, Kiritsugu, even the Grail itself. Again he worried that she must secretly detest such a hateful spirit.] When you have the time...I would like to speak with you. Please.

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I don't believe you. Why not?

I don't know. I'm certainly not lying.

Because when you say "I'll be fine" you mean "I'll be fine without your support" and you're wrong.

I don't think I'm wrong.

Shush. You need me to be here for you. And I am.

...Thank you.

It's okay to rely on people, Niisan. I'm always going to be here for you. I'll never betray you.

I know you won't, deartháir. I trust you absolutely.

And I'm honored.

...what should I do now? Just...ignore him? He doesn't even know how the war ended, just like Sola.

Talking to him won't make you any happier. Therefore, the next available option is to ignore him.

I'm...uneasy, Issei. It isn't that I'm afraid of him by any means, I just am not sure how to approach this.

I know. Just... let the matter be for the time being. Him coming here stirred up so many emotions that the passage of time will settle a bit.

I hope you're right. It's been months and I'm still angry with him, I can't say I'm sure time will do anything.

He just came back, it brought everything back to the surface. Give it some time, at least.

You're right. Still, I...I'm just not sure what I'm going to do.

Take a deep breath.

[Yessir.]

Exhale.

[You got it.]

Do that again. Focus only on breathing in and out.

I'm not sure what this is meant to accomplish.

It's a simple meditation exercise. Mindfulness of breathing calms people down, restores emotions that have become unbalanced. It's one of the first things I learned to do, training to become a monk.

O-oh, I see.

I'm trying to help, at least.

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