⚔ 005; [text]

[croibhristeoir]

[Lancer didn't appear on the network himself today. Whether out of shame or cowardice, he didn't know. But today, he simply couldn't show his face. The message he sent out was short and directly to the point.]

I seem to have something of a problem today.

I would like to ask for advice, if I could. Could anyone listen for a minute?

Comments

[revivedpianist.livejournal.com]

Make her.

[croibhristeoir]

What exactly are you suggesting?

[revivedpianist.livejournal.com]

Creativity?

[croibhristeoir]

I can't exactly force her to stay away from me.

[revivedpianist.livejournal.com]

My apologies.

The only idea I would assume that would work is to be blunt with her.

Regardless of what you say to her, her feelings will be hurt in the end. No matter what you say.

[croibhristeoir]

...I know. I know that all too well, but I wanted to think that maybe this time could be different.

[revivedpianist.livejournal.com]

Who is this woman?

[croibhristeoir]

Her name is Sola--she's my former Master's fiancee.

[revivedpianist.livejournal.com]

...

That is a bit awkward.

[croibhristeoir]

You have no idea.

[revivedpianist.livejournal.com]

Did that happen to be one of the reasons your Master was suspicious of you?

[croibhristeoir]

...Yes.

My reputation, I am sorry to say, is surely not the best one in this era. It can likely be said I have a history of things like this.

[revivedpianist.livejournal.com]

She is not the only one then?

[croibhristeoir]

Unfortunately, no--just the most recent.

[revivedpianist.livejournal.com]

...

How many times have you perished, Lancer?

[croibhristeoir]

...Twice.

[revivedpianist.livejournal.com]

Similar experience to the second?

[croibhristeoir]

Almost exactly.

How did you guess?

[revivedpianist.livejournal.com]

Ah... Lucky guess.

But ah. Is it normal? For those women to fall for you?

[croibhristeoir]

It's normal for me. I can't say it would be for any other.

[revivedpianist.livejournal.com]

[Dude. Lancer.

Your life.]

I see.

[There's a minute pause in between the previous text and this text.] May I ask you something?

[croibhristeoir]

[It sucks.]

Anything you ask, I will answer honestly. I have little reason to lie.

[revivedpianist.livejournal.com]

[It really does.]

Do you find your soul lost without a master?

[croibhristeoir]

I can not really say for sure. At the moment I am by the side of someone I am honored to fight for and beside, but it isn't the same as a Servant with his Master.

My purpose is to serve a lord or Master the best that I could. Twice I have tried to do so and twice I have failed the same way.

I have only two wishes left to me. One is to engage the knight I respect most in even and fair combat--the other is to make up for the mistakes of my past as a loyal knight. I can fulfill only one of these without a Master.

So...to an extent? Yes. I believe no matter what, I will end up somewhat lost.

[revivedpianist.livejournal.com]

A poor puppet without strings attached to it's back.

Tell me. Do you not wish to abandon your duty for your own happiness?