06 [Voice]

[needsteaplz.livejournal.com]

It's funny how if you die and then come back to life, you do get a new perspective on things. It's cliche but true. I know I should be getting my replacement weapon and getting back to training but I can't seem to bring myself to do it. And now that someone mentioned it's a full moon tonight, part of me wants stay me to stay when I do want to go out. It's frustrating to say the very least. I'm not saying I think my death was waste. Far from it. It's just that maybe it didn't have to happen if I was much stronger.

So I have to ask, how do you get past that fear of going back to fighting after dying or a major defeat?

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[greyerrant.livejournal.com]

... As an Astartes, I know no fear. We have a job to do, and we're the only ones that can do it. Ennui and terror are simply excuses.

We fail here, and... we fail the world.

[needsteaplz.livejournal.com]

I suppose that's one way of looking at it. I don't anymore of us getting heavily injured or even die against those Shadows. I want to be able to help you guys.

What is an Astartes, if you don't mind me asking.

[greyerrant.livejournal.com]

A gene-hanced space-marine, trained to destroy the enemies of humanity.

[needsteaplz.livejournal.com]

Gene-hanced and a space marine. I think this answered a few questions for me.

[greyerrant.livejournal.com]

And what questions were those?

[needsteaplz.livejournal.com]

Like how the heck you were in the lounge the whole time Kaiji and I had our dinner.

[greyerrant.livejournal.com]

Oh, my apologies. I was simply being quiet and didn't wish to interfere.

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[croibhristeoir]

Everyone dies. It's an unfortunate but inevitable truth.

So, knowing it will come regardless of what we do, death itself is nothing to fear. It's how one uses their life that matters, and whether that should include fighting or not is a choice only you can make.

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[needsteaplz.livejournal.com]

I know that and yet I let my fear control me. I just have to carry on and not look back, right?

Having my Persona awaken is a gift but it frustrates me at the same time. If I had this back home, maybe I could've done more to find out what happened to my father and little brother. Since I'm here, I want to become stronger not only for my own protection, but protect everyone else. I died sacrificing my life but I might've scarred that person in the process.

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[croibhristeoir]

That's all any of us can really do. Looking back and fearing the inevitable is futile.

Yes, it's possible such a thing could have shocked them. But they are still alive, and as long as someone lives they can take all the positives and negatives of life and carry on with them.

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[needsteaplz.livejournal.com]

I hope so. I have a feeling Kaiji will over come that trauma I gave him with the death by zombies. Someday.

Still, if I had been stronger maybe I didn't have to do that. Well, there's no point in wallowing in this self-pity. Guess I just need that shove out the door to get back to training.

[athngabla.livejournal.com]

Hmm, how to put it... If you're afraid of dying, you might as well be afraid of living.

Everything in life is a risk, right? You might as well take those risks and live to the fullest.

[needsteaplz.livejournal.com]

That's true. Even though if we die here we get revived, we should always live it out the fullest. I guess I just need that shove out the door to get me started on fighting again.

[athngabla.livejournal.com]

We get revived if we die here? Guess that makes sense. Heh, not that it changes my thoughts on that matter at all.