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[crazyoldbat.livejournal.com]

[Ingrid's looking uncharacteristically somber today, staring into her coffee mug as though it held the secrets of life.]

I'd always thought myself as someone who could adapt to anything. Working with the children I did, living the life I have; I thought I could handle any change. But it seems I've grown so accustomed to my routines without realizing it.

The people, places, and the things of grand significance. Those things are easy to miss when they are taken. I expected that; I was ready for that. I thought I was ready for that. But I find myself missing the small things too. The way my husband made a cup of coffee, the walk to school, reading the morning paper in the courtyard, listening to the students chatter about things that always seem so intense and important when you're young. I think I may miss those small things more than the big ones.

[She chuckles, but there's no joy in it.]

This may just be the talk of an old lady feeling her age, but indulge me so I don't feel so dramatic for this little episode. What are the things, big and small, you miss?

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[crazyoldbat.livejournal.com]

[She looks at him, eyebrows threatening to raise. She wants to ask, but doesn't. All the same her eyes are questioning.]

I'm sorry. I suppose we're a poor substitute.

[Video//Private]

[toomanypetals.livejournal.com]

...Not a substitute. No one is the same. It's... a different experience.

[Asking may or may not get her somewhere, depending on the question. He's good at being evasive.]

[Video//Private]

[crazyoldbat.livejournal.com]

A part of me is glad you are able to see it that way. [And there's a flash of an almost fond smile underneath all that gloom she's projecting.]

The person who were looking for, were they important to you? Someone else who can't be substituted?

[Video//Private]

[toomanypetals.livejournal.com]

They're the reason I live.

[He looks a bit uncertain though. He's never... actually met them.]

I died once-- almost died, I guess. Remembering them is the only reason I'm alive now.

[Video//Private]

[crazyoldbat.livejournal.com]

[She smiles a little.]

They saved you? I'm not necessarily asking in just the physical sense.

[Video//Private]

[toomanypetals.livejournal.com]

You could put it that way.

[Video//Private]

[crazyoldbat.livejournal.com]

I'll ask no further then. [For now]

[Video//Private]

[toomanypetals.livejournal.com]

Yeah.

[Just as well. It's...not a story that comes easily.]

[Video//Private]

[crazyoldbat.livejournal.com]

[She smiles reassuringly.]

Anytime you wish to talk, you know how to find me.

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[toomanypetals.livejournal.com]

...Yeah. Thanks.